Rainbow Cake

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger And lonely Open your heart and your friends disappear I wanted to make you a rainbow cake You pushed me in front of a bus On my road to recovery Addicted to the adrenaline rush That was illegal but it’s okay It’s the right thing to do Not …

No

What is this game you are playing I told you the rules Blinded by your sociopath Maliciously misguided Again you sink your venom Into my porcelain heart I’m already emaciated and haunted By your toxic curse And failing dream catcher Deluge of nightmares and tears Shaking and sweating Straightjacket struggle To hold onto sanity Damn …

Butterfly

I can’t be A productive member Of society When I can’t even follow My own thoughts Because You and You You threw me to the ground Mixed with dust and detritus Existing on Layers of dirt and sand Turned to rocky crag Abandoned baby Feral soul Wild thing Tourist Don the illusory garb Hide in the …

Redemption

One and one make two Those were the days And nights of drinks and danger Intoxicated inspired in-love Speeding streets screaming sheets Façade fading fast and furious Sadist seeping into safe sanctuary Invisible invasive insanity intrudes Secretly sucking my breath Pull the blinds blinding witness to you Damning destruction of devotion Desire domination devoid Of …

Today I Rise

Please take a few minutes to watch this inspirational video from Films for Action - The Flourish Initiative. https://vimeo.com/122762336 "The world is missing what I am ready to give: My Wisdom, My Sweetness, My Love and My hunger for Peace." "Where are you? Where are you, little girl with broken wings but full of hope? …

Grieving the Living

The following is a full copy of the article that I referenced in my last post, Mono no Aware. Perhaps it will shed some light on why I love this phrase and why it inspired me to write about it. My best friend for over twenty years recently left me, although she is still alive. …

Mono no Aware

I made a mistake. Fallout from damage past. The trauma endured caused me to react, fight or flee. When a man comes at me, to bully or overtake. My brain doesn’t stop to think, it is triggered. I’m unaware of the direction it will take. Once the panic abates, heartbeat moderates, I see the mistake. …

Monster

There are monsters in the closet The little girl cries You soothed her with promises To comfort her puerile fears The mother can’t see The way the little girl sees All the reassurances Sidestep the pictures she holds In her trembling heart There are no monsters Just go to sleep The sandman is coming He …