Locked inside my room Hundreds of doors light the way Mirrored walls reflect illusions To saving haven happy delusions I have an overwhelming need to stay I can’t comprehend Why anyone would want to leave It’s terrifying out there With no semblance of control Tuck and roll Tuck and roll Safety in numbers is a … Continue reading Sediment
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If Only
A wolf in sheep’s clothing Pales in comparison Persuasive and captivating Enchanting and endearing If only Some premonition of demoniac possession Brutal beast Savage sadist Throwing furniture and insults A shape-shifter That never left Even after death Haunting from the hereafter Navigating nightmares Destroying dreams Believing I would let you stay If only You just … Continue reading If Only
House on the Hill
The house on hill looks like it’s smiling. An ironic illusion. Who thought to dig out a flat spot on a hill? It was obviously meant for landslides, not living. It does make for a lovely view. You’ll see, once the swelling, bruises, rage and fear subside. Or a new family moves in. It’s clear … Continue reading House on the Hill
Storm
I am strong, but I am tired It’s not a matter of gratitude I have enough Wanting only distractibility Lucky are the disengaged The buyers, the consumers, the healthy The weightless Shopping for the best deal Tragedy came and stole my party Starving myself to shed the weight Living proof Bones are tenacious You are … Continue reading Storm
Rambo
The sun strains in whispers Washed under roars of thunder Flaming sparks elucidate Hallucinate Motley limbs scratch their crooked nails Across the glass summon a monster’s ball Close the curtains lest they grab hold Placental encapsulated protection Birthed in resistance and objection Insensitive creatures Breed sensitive souls Cut them down to discourage growth Cord poison … Continue reading Rambo
Where is My Blue Sky
Softly buried under cement Thanks for all the great memories Thought processes spider off in crazy directions Mimicking disease Facial abscesses Missing teeth Signs of stroke for brief episodes Temperamentally unsuited and emotionally unsound A serious condition always requires a serious response Wouldn’t it be great to be able to reboot ourselves Without technical difficulties … Continue reading Where is My Blue Sky
Discomfort
Invisible Illness
Lets talk about partnership I’d like to let you in on the taboo Your house erupts in flames And spreads around the world Heat wave Work for the mob Just sit at home and practice Call from the loud speaker of the patrol car The entire audience will cry Civic alliance and all The modern … Continue reading Invisible Illness
Stay
I know I changed. That was the point. I lost myself. Stuck in a rip tide, drowning in the dark. Treading water, gasping for air, grasping for life. And you knew I had a choice. Grab hold of hope or let go of living. You didn’t want me dead. Neither did I. Here I am. … Continue reading Stay
Hidden
you can’t see me masks make-up mannequin mirror tattoos tell a talismanic tapestry hair color streaks shriek sacrosanct black baggy hoody hint of hoodlum ripped jeans reveal reverent rebel laced up black boots bear barbaric bravery dark eyes long lashes red lipstick ravishing move or I’ll move you a picture of palatial power perfect protection … Continue reading Hidden