Background Noise

My lawyer died unexpectedly a few days ago. To most people, this probably wouldn’t be a big deal. But for me… he was a savior. He helped me during my divorce and all the years of restraining orders and court hearings and restraining order violations. He made me feel safe. He spoke for me when……

Untied

There is a darkness tied up inside Breaching the boundaries Captivity amplified It’s difficult to breath Contaminating me Skin and bones With no one home But for all That should not be spoken Teetering on the edge Elaborate steps to prevent malice From being woken These are the secrets I keep Lest a stir, a……

Smoke and Mirrors

Divinity reaches down from the sky, or maybe right up through the ground, there really isn’t any way to tell, it happens so fast, the rug gets pulled out from under me, my soul is wearing thin and my heart is quaking from everything unknown. The sun isn’t really rising and setting, we’re spinning around……

Knife to my Back

I found myself Walking in my sleep Feet at the edge A nightmare reality Making it’s way to the surface From beyond the deep My mind a raging storm Faces and memories torn Away in a frenzy Dazed and confused What’s in my head Grasping at bits and pieces I can see a light But……

Shining Silver Friend

Nervous breakdown? I’m unremarkably placid But I am broken down So many pieces lost in calamity A bloody breadcrumb trail Made from shards of my soul A being less than whole Squandered in violence, lies and tragedy Fathomless I can feel the heat Of where it all started Established in hell Endured in the inferno……

Legacy

“No” slips off your tongue like gravy How you do that amazes me I say “yes” because then I think Just maybe I will belong But for how long Listen to the creak of the door Your t-shirt has holes in it but you keep it anyway I’ve been in your house Tried to leave……

Away Then

Then Then, the day to day All I could do was go Away Fear clouded memory Duck and cover Mind fucked like A ravenous lover Leaving me helpless Weak On the floor A sobbing heap My truth Should be a lie Just let me be free The shape of fear The shape of me Hollowed……