Not So Poetic Reality

A series of unfathomable events has left me feeling that I’m living hell on earth. Beginning with the death of my most precious pup on April 26th, 2018. This is the little girl I rescued from a cage, the little girl I put my arms around every night and whispered my most secret, secrets to. …

Cold

On the edge of another night restlessness served under duress I hear her voice echo in my heart where warmth translates hope I feel her in my arms clinging to this moment praying it will stretch into forever so I will never have to know the crushing cold of her absence again  

Paint the Snow Pink

There is a pain in living For those devoured With awareness We are buried Under frozen ponds Murky muddied memories Where wicked absconds Desperately holding on To waning sun In for the long run Exploring depth Of clouded breath This feeling isn’t new Existing in pulses Ripples and surges Repulsive Reflection Of what I am …

Phantom Friend

How does it feel being a supreme human being Thank you for being phenomenal While you steal my flames and watch me stall True friends are like gold dust Sprinkling shimmering light through the darkness While I sit alone soaked in acid rain You act like this is a game Impractical joker I’d like to …

Vulture Culture

I had a feeling my world was amiss. I’d been dizzy, foggy, confused, listless. There was familiarity there, beside me, dog-like loyalty. Curiosity kept pulling at the leash, trying to change my direction. An auspicious white light in the distance caught my eye, illuminated by freshly sprouted emerald grass. My stomach turned, my heart skipped. …

The End of a Friendship

For a few of you that have talked with me and offered support and encouragement regarding the friend of mine who gave up on me, I ended it today. And thank you to so many of you that stepped up to offer kind words. I had been holding space in my heart for this person, …

If Only

A wolf in sheep’s clothing Pales in comparison Persuasive and captivating Enchanting and endearing If only Some premonition of demoniac possession Brutal beast Savage sadist Throwing furniture and insults A shape-shifter That never left Even after death Haunting from the hereafter Navigating nightmares Destroying dreams Believing I would let you stay If only You just …

Wallflower

I’ve always been the scapegoat Internalized remnants Take the blame Self shame Seeking justice Entitled to worthiness There is a lot more coming Sole purpose to release radiation Distract ourselves It’s worse than previously thought Hysterical acid sobs Burnt and tortured Steer clear It happens on a daily basis Society unwilling to discuss the epidemic …

Lovely

Ending

Too much time has passed I held a place in my heart for you Picked away at the scab to keep it open Time and tears prove strong It’s beginning to scar over The ache transforming to anger Too much time has passed The connection that held us together is stretched thin Beginning to fray …