Background Noise

My lawyer died unexpectedly a few days ago. To most people, this probably wouldn’t be a big deal. But for me… he was a savior. He helped me during my divorce and all the years of restraining orders and court hearings and restraining order violations. He made me feel safe. He spoke for me when…… Continue reading Background Noise

Away Then

Then Then, the day to day All I could do was go Away Fear clouded memory Duck and cover Mind fucked like A ravenous lover Leaving me helpless Weak On the floor A sobbing heap My truth Should be a lie Just let me be free The shape of fear The shape of me Hollowed…… Continue reading Away Then

Six Feet Under

shadows scorch my skin from pallid white of what had been now yellow ochre glistening against red ruby seeping teeth contaminate with venomous ash and time that has passed I carry their heavy chains clanking under the moon dressed to kill deity of doom screams buried under metal tainted with arsenic raw skin and bones…… Continue reading Six Feet Under

Madhouse

Join the circus Perform for peanuts Don’t bother me with reality Dissociation is my comfort zone The place I like to call home Fashionable yet comfortable Life inside a cage Whipped into submission Clean out the cobwebs White-knuckle grip Frenetic disorganized disturbance A magician with a magic wand Monochromatic maniacal music One hit wonder drug…… Continue reading Madhouse

Flames

Sulfur Smoke Gasoline Rotting earth Dirty fingernails Blood stained shirt Silk feels comforting against my skin Snagging scabs and wearing thin Throbbing head Living substance of a thread In love with the shape of my bones I can’t go home Muscle atrophy Death of agony Soul separated and quaking Spiritual awakening Follow the stars The…… Continue reading Flames

Fallout

Days get taken away Lost in the fray Incognizant replicant robots Don’t know what they’ve missed Taken for granted Sniveling miscreants Repel any thought of the disenchanted Time flies when you’re falling apart Body and mind disconnected Every moment matters Radioactive fallout Hotter than the sun The world is on fire Long since abandoned A…… Continue reading Fallout