Away Then

Then Then, the day to day All I could do was go Away Fear clouded memory Duck and cover Mind fucked like A ravenous lover Leaving me helpless Weak On the floor A sobbing heap My truth Should be a lie Just let me be free The shape of fear The shape of me Hollowed …

Under Water

Drowning baby Smiling family posing for pictures in paradise Sharing air kisses We surfed the beach Tasting power and fake freedom The ideal human nest rarely exists The truth comes out as I get older You tell me it’s a journey But I’m ignoring you Please don’t think I’m rude I am a hermit crab …

Come With Me

Days of the innocent Children go outside, get lost in make-believe Carrying secrets not knowing the weight Believing the same of their playmates As they grew with invisible cracks Fractures in a vulnerable infrastructure Building blocks of brain damage Recognized when I left Remembered when you howled Catastrophic collapse Razor sharp relics resurface Regurgitated into …

Loyalty

Save Me

Circles Connect and continue Pass on, pass away, give away, take away The borders become heavier, thicker, fenced As years go by and pain is imprinted And love is gone missing Stay inside the lines Let my longing begin to Deviate And make a softer mark Reflecting my deserving heart Spiral through the years And …

Perfume

Memories waft in and out of the here and now and past and before. Mingling in the air, she breathes and speaks of dreams and nightmares. Life woven together from bits and pieces a faint reminder. Photographs and faces are faded and wrinkled from time and worry. Forehead kisses soft and sweet, once received now …

Stay

I know I changed. That was the point. I lost myself. Stuck in a rip tide, drowning in the dark. Treading water, gasping for air, grasping for life. And you knew I had a choice. Grab hold of hope or let go of living. You didn’t want me dead. Neither did I. Here I am. …

Family Values

*TRIGGER WARNING - CONTENT CONTAINS REFERENCES TO CHILD ABUSE* The family values three squares at the table A nightly ritual force fed to the masses To bring us together in peace and harmony Share the day around our daily bread Bred from chaos A show more riveting than any on tv Girl watches from a …

Shaken

Shaking my head in disbelief believe in love your self love hate relationship rules the roost forever in the dark I see in your eyes reflected in the mirror that swallows me whole I get stuck in my throat and can’t breath take deep breaths take another drink that spills out of my mouth along …

Grieving the Living

The following is a full copy of the article that I referenced in my last post, Mono no Aware. Perhaps it will shed some light on why I love this phrase and why it inspired me to write about it. My best friend for over twenty years recently left me, although she is still alive. …