She stood at the door One hand on the knob The other on a suitcase Empty or packed Who knows There was yelling And tears And fear That I know Was she leaving Him or me Who knows Tiny hands Clinging to clothing Taking a stand Uttering ultimatums Memory stores Emotion Snapshots Irrelevant time He’s … Continue reading Never Know
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Inertia
A parent perched upon Each slouched shoulder Hands hang useless at my side Oxygen tubes wrap tight round my throat Mentholatum, mothballs and melancholia Mother may I No, dad will hear Shhhh don’t say a word Or think a thing About life or death Or anything in between Just tell me what’s for dinner Chicken … Continue reading Inertia
Update #2
Just wanted to let you all know that my wonderful, kind brother died peacefully in is sleep on Sunday evening. He fought hard and is resting now free of pain. His heart was full of love from his daughter, son-in-law, family, friends and me. I’m thankful that we all had time to tell him how … Continue reading Update #2
Update
I just wanted to take a moment to share why I have been absent from WordPress in the last few months and haven’t been able to keep up with reading all of your posts. My brother has terminal brain cancer. He recently moved back into our childhood home with our parents (who are also both … Continue reading Update
Arsonist
Birthed into flames Neonatal neurosis Suckled on psychosis Face streaked black Chocking on ash Back against the wall Tucked into crumbling Child’s memory Tell me lies of Wind in my hair Swinging From a tree Once anchored Now singed As my heart Rotten roots Fight for life Never ends Home sweet home Gorged with grief … Continue reading Arsonist
The Importance of Being
My definition Is broken Gasping For air Time Is calling Traces Of lifetimes Erasing Being Shadow, Where are you? I need you Now Darkness is Here I can’t see Who I Will become When I am One (Image from Pinterest)
Modest Mouse
I went to a Modest Mouse concert last night with my husband and both of my kids. It was such fun! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yMKn6XIvM2M
If Only
A wolf in sheep’s clothing Pales in comparison Persuasive and captivating Enchanting and endearing If only Some premonition of demoniac possession Brutal beast Savage sadist Throwing furniture and insults A shape-shifter That never left Even after death Haunting from the hereafter Navigating nightmares Destroying dreams Believing I would let you stay If only You just … Continue reading If Only
Rambo
The sun strains in whispers Washed under roars of thunder Flaming sparks elucidate Hallucinate Motley limbs scratch their crooked nails Across the glass summon a monster’s ball Close the curtains lest they grab hold Placental encapsulated protection Birthed in resistance and objection Insensitive creatures Breed sensitive souls Cut them down to discourage growth Cord poison … Continue reading Rambo
Proceed with Caution
One of the great challenges for those who have survived abusive and neglectful parents is that there is often a part of us that is still waiting for them to love us, even if there is very little chance of that happening. Locked in an archaic mindset, we continue to go back for more, looking … Continue reading Proceed with Caution