Under the Influence

Frigid fog Relentlessly rising From warm mother Loyal as a dog Turns to ice When it touches my skin Promises spliced Into lapsed life Secrets buried Flashback of Drugged days Bitter taste Anemic amnesiac Miss you Let’s get together soon Sweet solicitations Remember me Drown me Choking on vows Cotton in my mouth Rabid teeth……

Phantom Friend

How does it feel being a supreme human being Thank you for being phenomenal While you steal my flames and watch me stall True friends are like gold dust Sprinkling shimmering light through the darkness While I sit alone soaked in acid rain You act like this is a game Impractical joker I’d like to……

Plastic Girl

Dreams of memory loss Refractive nightmare replacement Dismembered and detached Off and running after sanative spirit and soul Despite debilitating disease Just because I’m smiling doesn’t mean I’m not in pain Screw what the world expects Social engagement keeps me sick I’d rather stay home with my 2 packs a day All I did today……

Ending

Too much time has passed I held a place in my heart for you Picked away at the scab to keep it open Time and tears prove strong It’s beginning to scar over The ache transforming to anger Too much time has passed The connection that held us together is stretched thin Beginning to fray……

Mountains

No matter how hard I try, there is not a day that goes by that I don’t think about you. My heart is forever broken because you left. Somedays it’s all tears and sorrow. Others are full of anger and resentment. I simply cannot grasp how you could treat me this way, after all of……

Rainbow Cake

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger And lonely Open your heart and your friends disappear I wanted to make you a rainbow cake You pushed me in front of a bus On my road to recovery Addicted to the adrenaline rush That was illegal but it’s okay It’s the right thing to do Not……

Collateral Damage

We lose friends. We are hurt by those meant to love us. We struggle to find answers. We will likely never have resolution. We might find comfort simply by accepting the reality We are just collateral damage.