Update

I just wanted to take a moment to share why I have been absent from WordPress in the last few months and haven’t been able to keep up with reading all of your posts. My brother has terminal brain cancer. He recently moved back into our childhood home with our parents (who are also both……

Arsonist

Birthed into flames Neonatal neurosis Suckled on psychosis Face streaked black Chocking on ash Back against the wall Tucked into crumbling Child’s memory Tell me lies of Wind in my hair Swinging From a tree Once anchored Now singed As my heart Rotten roots Fight for life Never ends Home sweet home Gorged with grief……

The Importance of Being

My definition Is broken Gasping For air Time Is calling Traces Of lifetimes Erasing Being Shadow, Where are you? I need you Now Darkness is Here I can’t see Who I Will become When I am One   (Image from Pinterest)

Under the Influence

Frigid fog Relentlessly rising From warm mother Loyal as a dog Turns to ice When it touches my skin Promises spliced Into lapsed life Secrets buried Flashback of Drugged days Bitter taste Anemic amnesiac Miss you Let’s get together soon Sweet solicitations Remember me Drown me Choking on vows Cotton in my mouth Rabid teeth……

Backlash

Empty Densely clouded days and nights No light can shine in that deep darkness Penetrating cold that incapacitates Flames extinguished by anguish Ghosts of what I once was Fill me up I’m looking for you My father’s words bash against my already throbbing skull. “If I could just push a button and die I would……

Background Noise

My lawyer died unexpectedly a few days ago. To most people, this probably wouldn’t be a big deal. But for me… he was a savior. He helped me during my divorce and all the years of restraining orders and court hearings and restraining order violations. He made me feel safe. He spoke for me when……

Away Then

Then Then, the day to day All I could do was go Away Fear clouded memory Duck and cover Mind fucked like A ravenous lover Leaving me helpless Weak On the floor A sobbing heap My truth Should be a lie Just let me be free The shape of fear The shape of me Hollowed……