Backlash

Empty Densely clouded days and nights No light can shine in that deep darkness Penetrating cold that incapacitates Flames extinguished by anguish Ghosts of what I once was Fill me up I’m looking for you My father’s words bash against my already throbbing skull. “If I could just push a button and die I would…… Continue reading Backlash

Background Noise

My lawyer died unexpectedly a few days ago. To most people, this probably wouldn’t be a big deal. But for me… he was a savior. He helped me during my divorce and all the years of restraining orders and court hearings and restraining order violations. He made me feel safe. He spoke for me when…… Continue reading Background Noise

Away Then

Then Then, the day to day All I could do was go Away Fear clouded memory Duck and cover Mind fucked like A ravenous lover Leaving me helpless Weak On the floor A sobbing heap My truth Should be a lie Just let me be free The shape of fear The shape of me Hollowed…… Continue reading Away Then

Six Feet Under

shadows scorch my skin from pallid white of what had been now yellow ochre glistening against red ruby seeping teeth contaminate with venomous ash and time that has passed I carry their heavy chains clanking under the moon dressed to kill deity of doom screams buried under metal tainted with arsenic raw skin and bones…… Continue reading Six Feet Under

Flames

Sulfur Smoke Gasoline Rotting earth Dirty fingernails Blood stained shirt Silk feels comforting against my skin Snagging scabs and wearing thin Throbbing head Living substance of a thread In love with the shape of my bones I can’t go home Muscle atrophy Death of agony Soul separated and quaking Spiritual awakening Follow the stars The…… Continue reading Flames

Dose Me

A dose of reality Gasping for breath Drowning dreams Ambushed amygdala Cemented cerebellum Hijacked heart Supine soul Will my arms to relocate Caress and count protruding ribs Prompting pulse check Resembling week old road kill Weak unborn duckling Desperately convulsing out of my shell Time travelled to hell I always welcomed Pain as distraction What…… Continue reading Dose Me