Nightmares are tolerable Same old thing Chased and cheated Trapped and tricked Falling and failing Nothing all that terrible It’s the spiders I can’t stand Crawling over my legs Snacking on my neck I flick them off Half asleep Wondering how high the pile will be One of my favorite things to wake up to … Continue reading Demolition
We lose friends. We are hurt by those meant to love us. We struggle to find answers. We will likely never have resolution. We might find comfort simply by accepting the reality We are just collateral damage.
If you can no longer handle my truth If you can no longer handle my voice If you can longer handle my strength If you can no longer handle my beauty If you can no longer handle my bruises You no longer get to be in in my tribe
What is this game you are playing I told you the rules Blinded by your sociopath Maliciously misguided Again you sink your venom Into my porcelain heart I’m already emaciated and haunted By your toxic curse And failing dream catcher Deluge of nightmares and tears Shaking and sweating Straightjacket struggle To hold onto sanity Damn … Continue reading No
Softly buried under cement Thanks for all the great memories Thought processes spider off in crazy directions Mimicking disease Facial abscesses Missing teeth Signs of stroke for brief episodes Temperamentally unsuited and emotionally unsound A serious condition always requires a serious response Wouldn’t it be great to be able to reboot ourselves Without technical difficulties … Continue reading Where is My Blue Sky
I know I changed. That was the point. I lost myself. Stuck in a rip tide, drowning in the dark. Treading water, gasping for air, grasping for life. And you knew I had a choice. Grab hold of hope or let go of living. You didn’t want me dead. Neither did I. Here I am. … Continue reading Stay
There is no denying the fact the living with mental and chronic illness is a challenge. This seems especially true for those of us who have also experienced trauma. Childhood trauma sets us on a path that leads to low self-esteem, depression, anxiety, PTSD, and attachment issues. Many live in this state of maladjustment for … Continue reading Compassion
Finding contentment can be a struggle for me. I know we all struggle on some level. We are all at the mercy of the cards we’re dealt. Unfortunately, some of us end up with a crappy hand. My cards include mental and chronic illness and when those are added to the regular deck, well, it just … Continue reading My Sweet Girl