Legacy

“No” slips off your tongue like gravy How you do that amazes me I say “yes” because then I think Just maybe I will belong But for how long Listen to the creak of the door Your t-shirt has holes in it but you keep it anyway I’ve been in your house Tried to leave …

Amulet

I need another anchor To help keep me grounded Open to a new approach Chanting and praying Anything to keep me from fading Falling apart Walk right through me Rip open my heart I’ll take the pain You get the gain Love comes at a cost Calibrated clear vision Hyper honed hearing Hawk like precision …

Doctor’s Orders

My kind, gentle, bubbly pain specialist. All day, every day, dealing with invisible pain, drug seekers, serious sufferers. Yet he saunters in with the same big grin, eager to tell me the latest, non-medicinal updates on pain management. He is so excited I can’t help but smile through my pain. “Plant your feet on the …

Plastic Girl

Dreams of memory loss Refractive nightmare replacement Dismembered and detached Off and running after sanative spirit and soul Despite debilitating disease Just because I’m smiling doesn’t mean I’m not in pain Screw what the world expects Social engagement keeps me sick I’d rather stay home with my 2 packs a day All I did today …

Sinner

  I chopped off the head of a snake once. I am responsible for the death of millions of wasps and spiders. I tried to save the field mice, but there were just too many feasting off my food and fouling shelves with fecal matter. I know, I know, it’s barbaric behavior, and I beg …

Slay

You think you got me this time, don’t you? Sadistic, sketchy, smooth son of a bitch. Pushing me from behind Bashing my face into boundaries I set in stone. Pile it on. Pound my head for the millionth time. You think that will stop me? Pain is my middle name. You forgot about the mountains …

Invisible Illness

Lets talk about partnership I’d like to let you in on the taboo Your house erupts in flames And spreads around the world Heat wave Work for the mob Just sit at home and practice Call from the loud speaker of the patrol car The entire audience will cry Civic alliance and all The modern …

Maybe Tomorrow

Today I need to be strong Wait it out, wish it out I live within a box, within a box, within a box And open one after another Patiently, quietly Questioning Whatever the next one brings Until there are none left Today, tomorrow, next year, never I’ll wake with confusion To find Just me Visible …

Am I Enough?

Day after day With mental illness And chronic pain I ask myself Am I enough? I used to know the answer Never even had to ask I parented, worked, played, friended All taken for granted Now just taken Reborn into another realm With new rules and new norms It's time for planting And growing Praying …

In the Beginning