Belief

So long ago Details are blurred Most of the evening has been lost Flirted and drunk into dark recesses But for the piece of gold Placed gently in my hands “I want to go where ever you go” I thought you meant for one night But your mind was on forever Despite my heart of …

Ammunition

I know where you’ve been The reality behind strained grin Long sleeves Baggy shirts Underneath it all is hurt Make-up doesn’t hide the sign Emotional decline Soul damaged and burnt Confusion and chaos Not really living Utterly lost Weight of your demons Holding you down Pretending and hiding Praying for an end Or some quick …

Fallout

Days get taken away Lost in the fray Incognizant replicant robots Don’t know what they’ve missed Taken for granted Sniveling miscreants Repel any thought of the disenchanted Time flies when you’re falling apart Body and mind disconnected Every moment matters Radioactive fallout Hotter than the sun The world is on fire Long since abandoned A …

Collateral Damage

We lose friends. We are hurt by those meant to love us. We struggle to find answers. We will likely never have resolution. We might find comfort simply by accepting the reality We are just collateral damage.

Come With Me

Days of the innocent Children go outside, get lost in make-believe Carrying secrets not knowing the weight Believing the same of their playmates As they grew with invisible cracks Fractures in a vulnerable infrastructure Building blocks of brain damage Recognized when I left Remembered when you howled Catastrophic collapse Razor sharp relics resurface Regurgitated into …

Sinner

  I chopped off the head of a snake once. I am responsible for the death of millions of wasps and spiders. I tried to save the field mice, but there were just too many feasting off my food and fouling shelves with fecal matter. I know, I know, it’s barbaric behavior, and I beg …

Beauty and Bruises

  If you can no longer handle my truth If you can no longer handle my voice If you can longer handle my strength If you can no longer handle my beauty If you can no longer handle my bruises You no longer get to be in in my tribe

Where is My Blue Sky

Softly buried under cement Thanks for all the great memories Thought processes spider off in crazy directions Mimicking disease Facial abscesses Missing teeth Signs of stroke for brief episodes Temperamentally unsuited and emotionally unsound A serious condition always requires a serious response Wouldn’t it be great to be able to reboot ourselves Without technical difficulties …

Rise

Wonderful video/song by one of my favorite artists and a nice follow-up of my previous post about the passage of time. If you have the chance to see Eddie Vedder or Pearl Jam you should do it!   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1QO191imv0s Such is the way of the world You can never know Just where to put all …

Heart of Gold

Another great quote for those of us that are struggling to understand the loss of friendships and relationships when we are chronically ill. There are a lot of us, which means that it is possible to find new people who can understand, lift us up and stand beside us. We deserve better and we have …