I hear you come for me On the cusp of sleep Whispering wisps Of ethereal memory Unforgettable Last breath Fill my fated lungs Dream me back To life (Image from Pinterest)
Last Breath
Category: grief
Not So Poetic Reality
A series of unfathomable events has left me feeling that I’m living hell on earth. Beginning with the death of my most precious pup on April 26th, 2018. This is the little girl I rescued from a cage, the little girl I put my arms around every night and whispered my most secret, secrets to. … Continue reading Not So Poetic Reality
Cold
On the edge of another night restlessness served under duress I hear her voice echo in my heart where warmth translates hope I feel her in my arms clinging to this moment praying it will stretch into forever so I will never have to know the crushing cold of her absence again
Never Know
She stood at the door One hand on the knob The other on a suitcase Empty or packed Who knows There was yelling And tears And fear That I know Was she leaving Him or me Who knows Tiny hands Clinging to clothing Taking a stand Uttering ultimatums Memory stores Emotion Snapshots Irrelevant time He’s … Continue reading Never Know
Inertia
A parent perched upon Each slouched shoulder Hands hang useless at my side Oxygen tubes wrap tight round my throat Mentholatum, mothballs and melancholia Mother may I No, dad will hear Shhhh don’t say a word Or think a thing About life or death Or anything in between Just tell me what’s for dinner Chicken … Continue reading Inertia
Suicide Mosquitoes
*Trigger Warning - Suicidal Content* Today you would have been fifty-two Instead the doctor took away my blue Pills and made me start the yellow But I don’t feel like yellow I feel like blue Memories of you Pinching at my heart Suicide mosquitoes buzzing Round my head Today you would have been fifty-two … Continue reading Suicide Mosquitoes
Arsonist
Birthed into flames Neonatal neurosis Suckled on psychosis Face streaked black Chocking on ash Back against the wall Tucked into crumbling Child’s memory Tell me lies of Wind in my hair Swinging From a tree Once anchored Now singed As my heart Rotten roots Fight for life Never ends Home sweet home Gorged with grief … Continue reading Arsonist
Phantom Friend
How does it feel being a supreme human being Thank you for being phenomenal While you steal my flames and watch me stall True friends are like gold dust Sprinkling shimmering light through the darkness While I sit alone soaked in acid rain You act like this is a game Impractical joker I’d like to … Continue reading Phantom Friend
The End of a Friendship
For a few of you that have talked with me and offered support and encouragement regarding the friend of mine who gave up on me, I ended it today. And thank you to so many of you that stepped up to offer kind words. I had been holding space in my heart for this person, … Continue reading The End of a Friendship
Perfume
Memories waft in and out of the here and now and past and before. Mingling in the air, she breathes and speaks of dreams and nightmares. Life woven together from bits and pieces a faint reminder. Photographs and faces are faded and wrinkled from time and worry. Forehead kisses soft and sweet, once received now … Continue reading Perfume
