Knife to my Back

I found myself Walking in my sleep Feet at the edge A nightmare reality Making it’s way to the surface From beyond the deep My mind a raging storm Faces and memories torn Away in a frenzy Dazed and confused What’s in my head Grasping at bits and pieces I can see a light But…… Continue reading Knife to my Back

Away Then

Then Then, the day to day All I could do was go Away Fear clouded memory Duck and cover Mind fucked like A ravenous lover Leaving me helpless Weak On the floor A sobbing heap My truth Should be a lie Just let me be free The shape of fear The shape of me Hollowed…… Continue reading Away Then

Where Did You Go?

For me,  Christine and Dom Where did you go? Little one With your smile as big as the sun When did running Change from game to survival When did hide and seek Become staying hidden You were always first in line Brave and limitless Shouting from the top of the pines Who hurt you? Little…… Continue reading Where Did You Go?

Child of War

Immaculate conception Unimaginable deception Bloodied bible Walls pitted Plastered with black Brush the bullets From the pelleted pews Panicked prayers Dynamite dreams Shattered screams Sentenced to life Punished to create Hell on earth The color of cages The sound of metal The taste of time Drowning in drought Dying in doubt Dreadful days Demoniac nights…… Continue reading Child of War

If Only

A wolf in sheep’s clothing Pales in comparison Persuasive and captivating Enchanting and endearing If only Some premonition of demoniac possession Brutal beast Savage sadist Throwing furniture and insults A shape-shifter That never left Even after death Haunting from the hereafter Navigating nightmares Destroying dreams Believing I would let you stay If only You just…… Continue reading If Only

Proceed with Caution

One of the great challenges for those who have survived abusive and neglectful parents is that there is often a part of us that is still waiting for them to love us, even if there is very little chance of that happening. Locked in an archaic mindset, we continue to go back for more, looking…… Continue reading Proceed with Caution

Redemption

One and one make two Those were the days And nights of drinks and danger Intoxicated inspired in-love Speeding streets screaming sheets Façade fading fast and furious Sadist seeping into safe sanctuary Invisible invasive insanity intrudes Secretly sucking my breath Pull the blinds blinding witness to you Damning destruction of devotion Desire domination devoid Of…… Continue reading Redemption