Shift

Churned in chronic cloud Wafted away To tenebrous fray I’m wrecked Face down Among ash anointed dirt Abysmally amassing Illness Sadness Death So lonely Don’t tell me About reasons Or better places In this house Where words are weapons And welts wail long after The belts been cinched This is chaos And I’m lost Waiting …

Madhouse

Join the circus Perform for peanuts Don’t bother me with reality Dissociation is my comfort zone The place I like to call home Fashionable yet comfortable Life inside a cage Whipped into submission Clean out the cobwebs White-knuckle grip Frenetic disorganized disturbance A magician with a magic wand Monochromatic maniacal music One hit wonder drug …

Amulet

I need another anchor To help keep me grounded Open to a new approach Chanting and praying Anything to keep me from fading Falling apart Walk right through me Rip open my heart I’ll take the pain You get the gain Love comes at a cost Calibrated clear vision Hyper honed hearing Hawk like precision …

Flames

Sulfur Smoke Gasoline Rotting earth Dirty fingernails Blood stained shirt Silk feels comforting against my skin Snagging scabs and wearing thin Throbbing head Living substance of a thread In love with the shape of my bones I can’t go home Muscle atrophy Death of agony Soul separated and quaking Spiritual awakening Follow the stars The …

House on the Hill

The house on hill looks like it’s smiling. An ironic illusion. Who thought to dig out a flat spot on a hill? It was obviously meant for landslides, not living. It does make for a lovely view. You’ll see, once the swelling, bruises, rage and fear subside. Or a new family moves in. It’s clear …

Under Water

Drowning baby Smiling family posing for pictures in paradise Sharing air kisses We surfed the beach Tasting power and fake freedom The ideal human nest rarely exists The truth comes out as I get older You tell me it’s a journey But I’m ignoring you Please don’t think I’m rude I am a hermit crab …

Rambo

The sun strains in whispers Washed under roars of thunder Flaming sparks elucidate Hallucinate Motley limbs scratch their crooked nails Across the glass summon a monster’s ball Close the curtains lest they grab hold Placental encapsulated protection Birthed in resistance and objection Insensitive creatures Breed sensitive souls Cut them down to discourage growth Cord poison …

Numb

I'm not sure that this feeling can be described as numb. Maybe I just haven't gotten there yet, or it's possible that I have passed it up, after all, numb means that you can't feel anything. So how am I to know? Let's get on with the show. I am quite uncomfortable, inside and outside …

Slay

You think you got me this time, don’t you? Sadistic, sketchy, smooth son of a bitch. Pushing me from behind Bashing my face into boundaries I set in stone. Pile it on. Pound my head for the millionth time. You think that will stop me? Pain is my middle name. You forgot about the mountains …