There is a darkness tied up inside
Breaching the boundaries
Captivity amplified
It’s difficult to breath
Contaminating me
Skin and bones
With no one home
But for all
That should not be spoken
Teetering on the edge
Elaborate steps to prevent malice
From being woken
These are the secrets I keep
Lest a stir, a face, a sound, a place
Startles the unavowed
So I tip toe around myself
And everyone else
Perpetually panicked
Cutting and drinking and starving
To leak it out, drown it out, kill it out
Time and connection has shown me
It’s better to be quiet and lonely
Why is the silence so loud?
Stuck between solitude and kindness
And repressed
Brutal remembrance
If only
I hadn’t grown in a box made of wood and danger
Built by strangers
They were so good at pretending to care
Hold me in your thoughts and prayers
Or please just hold me
So I don’t fall apart
Like a work of abstract art
None of it fits quite right
With eyes that see what they should not
Ears only hear what they want
Hands hide truth behind your back
Hearts afraid to unpack
I’m bulging at the seams
Forsaking my dreams
Made of strings
Insidiously unraveling
Dangling
By a
Thread
Scissors whisper freedom
If I could just reach them
But I am
Shackled and shrouded
Awaiting
Life
Unclouded
And a safe space to hide
Biding time
Until I become
Untied
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Why is the silence so loud?
I love that line!
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