For a few of you that have talked with me and offered support and encouragement regarding the friend of mine who gave up on me, I ended it today. And thank you to so many of you that stepped up to offer kind words. I had been holding space in my heart for this person, … Continue reading The End of a Friendship
A dose of reality Gasping for breath Drowning dreams Ambushed amygdala Cemented cerebellum Hijacked heart Supine soul Will my arms to relocate Caress and count protruding ribs Prompting pulse check Resembling week old road kill Weak unborn duckling Desperately convulsing out of my shell Time travelled to hell I always welcomed Pain as distraction What … Continue reading Dose Me
Disgraced human looking for a home Detached baby crying in the night Eyes and scars tell the story Existence hurts Damaged duo seeking hero You need something that is yours Strength in numbers Agitated and exhausted Twisted thinking Leaving the door open Evil sneaks in Cancel your plans Doubt yourself Carry guilt If my only … Continue reading Dirt
Simply a quote from one of my favorite authors. “What deity in the realms of dementia, what rabid god decocted out of the smoking lobes of hydrophobia could have devised a keeping place for souls so poor as is this flesh. This mawky worm-bent tabernacle.” ― Cormac McCarthy, Suttree
I’d be lying if I said I’m okay Today torrential turmoil So full I’m overflowing Lava fields solidify loss Thoughts stagnant in stone Collective torment of the invisible woman Endured and embodied Residue of resplendence washed away Into a massive caldera of an ancient volcano Choking On ashen acid aching Rim collapsing from seismic shaking … Continue reading Home
Locked inside my room Hundreds of doors light the way Mirrored walls reflect illusions To saving haven happy delusions I have an overwhelming need to stay I can’t comprehend Why anyone would want to leave It’s terrifying out there With no semblance of control Tuck and roll Tuck and roll Safety in numbers is a … Continue reading Sediment
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Whatever was left inside
Leaked
Right out through the floor tiles
I was cracked
I think
Cracked for so long
All the angels blood slipped right out
I left my wounds open
Far too many days
The demons must’ve seen me
As an invitation
Oozing black tears
I was no longer a child
..The light..
To find solace, I pushed all the brightness away
Letting in a sweet
Dark
Seductress
I was cracked
Tying together all the words of pain
Of regret
Self-hatred
Tying them all together
Into a makeshift casing
Pulling them around this skin
So tightly
Keeping all the demons
My companions
In this body
Led by the
Seductress
The demons chewed apart these
Insides
Feeding off the
Insecurities
Surrounding every single molecule
Until
I was nothing but bone.
(Title IMAGE: AMBAR DEL MORAL/MASHABLE)
A wolf in sheep’s clothing Pales in comparison Persuasive and captivating Enchanting and endearing If only Some premonition of demoniac possession Brutal beast Savage sadist Throwing furniture and insults A shape-shifter That never left Even after death Haunting from the hereafter Navigating nightmares Destroying dreams Believing I would let you stay If only You just … Continue reading If Only
