I want the days back
The days that were pure
When happiness was simple and clear
When nothing else mattered
No darkness could find its way
Rainbows and sunshine
Too bright for any thing but light
Days filled with babies
Everything shining brand new
Cuddles and gentle kisses
Tickles and raspberries
Crayons and glue
Bubbles and sidewalk chalk
Dress up and forts
Music and dancing
Mud pies and puddles
Hide and seek in sunflower trees
Bare-naked skips through waterfall drops
Bedtime stories and snuggles
Giggles and belly laughs
Sweet angels protected me
With their unrelenting bliss
Keeping away the darkness
That kept knocking at my door.
I want the days back
Those effortless and merry days
They needed to stay
Keep time from coming for me
Those cherished moments
Still holding strong in heart and soul
Proving memory insufficient
For protection from seasons
Letting in that darkness
That had been waiting outside
For a chance to slip in
And ransack my mind
I want the days back
In a blink of an eye
Time took me and the days
And told me I can’t stay
My respite is over
Now I must pay
For what I will never know
But the cost is clear
The days I want back
No you can’t have those my dear
Time took the angels too
They must grow up
And make their own days
Please I beg there is still glitter
Left behind in the cracks
I want the days back
What I was given in replacement
Is missing incessant joy
A blanket of sadness
A pile of broken toys
Irreparable damage from
Good karma gone bad
I want the days to go away
And I long for sleep
The only departure
From pain too deep
Tossed around like a leaf
Caught in a tornado eternal
Contradictions kick back
Because I dread the night
Reminding me of it’s associate
Obliged wakefulness
Each time in pure fear
A slap in the face
Another day
Wishing for sleep
I want the days back
Wow, that was incredibly powerful! As well as sad and emotional. I felt every single line. My favorite are
“Please I beg there is still glitter
Left behind in the cracks”. Maybe because I used to be fascinated with glitter in the sense that it represented everything that was good in the world to me. But somehow I can’t get that feeling back lately…
Thank you for writing this post. Although it’s incredibly sad, it made me smile too because I can tell there are other people out there struggling with similar issues. That makes the journey less lonely.
And I think you are very much a writer/poet! 🙂
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Thank you so much. I’m so glad you were touched by this poem. The line about the glitter is meant just as you stated… I honestly still do find glitter and it takes me right back to those times when my children were little and everything was so happy and easy. And yes, a feeling that is hard to get back. I’m finding so many people to connect with here. Again, thank you for your your kind words. ❤
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Thank you for the lovely comment! I understand exactly what you mean. All the best, Gregoria
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😢 This was so sad…but again wonderfully written. I relate to these feelings myself x
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Thank you, but sorry to make you sad. I’m glad that you can relate… those days were so easy, they bring me joy. The transition to becoming and ’empty nester’ has been a challenge for sure. ❤ Thank you for reading!
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I’m not an empty nester…but I lost my family so I relate on that level. You never have to apologise for creating an emotional response in a reader…that shows how descriptively well written it is, if you can transport the reader on an emotional journey. Reading other blogs can help us process our own experiences if we connect with the writing. It’s a positive 😊
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I’m glad you were able to connect with my message. I hope it helps you in some way. And thank you again. You’re making my day 🙂
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I’m so pleased 🙂 If i think complimentary things I say them. It doesn’t matter if it’s the first post of a blogger I’ve read or the 50th…if I like it I say. So I’m really happy that it made you feel encouraged 😊❤
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Me too!!
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